Saturday, January 24, 2015

2nd Pregnancy: Week 21

This week's weather was bizarre with April-like-sun-shining days leading up to yesterday and today's several inches of fluffy snow covering the bluegrass. Yesterday, as the snow was falling, we taught Shepherd how to catch snowflakes in his mouth. He kept "pretending" to catch them even after we went inside and sat down for dinner. He learned the word "snow" quickly too, because every time we said it, he would either point to outside or stick out his tongue, close his eyes, and tilt his head way back. 

At breakfast Josh and I asked each other what our favorite part of the day was. We both agreed that the morning time before I leave for work is our most cherished time. Each morning this week was similar. Shep wakes up at 6am and doses on and off for an hour until we come get him at 7am. I always open the door, and he squeals with excitement and throws himself back on his bed. We play for about 30 seconds before I have to do the dreaded.... The inevitable diaper change. (This is the only part I don't like) I somehow manage to get a clean and dry diaper on Shep despite the crying/screaming and wiggling moves he attempts to get out of the diaper change. As soon as we are finished, he immediately stops crying and signs "food" by tapping all of his finger tips to his mouth and "milk" by imitating milking a cow's utter. Josh usually beats us down stairs as he starts preparing our breakfast. We rotate between pancakes, french toast, biscuits, scrambled eggs, and egg sandwiches throughout the week. Josh makes his dad's homemade recipe for pancakes and the biscuits, and I make the french toast and anything to do with eggs. Whoever isn't cooking has to distract Shep until breakfast is finished. Almost every morning we freshly grind and brew a french press of Kifu coffee, and we all eat at the table together. 

Shep has been in to the phase of wanting to use his fork independently, but he still hasn't quite got the hang of loading the fork. We normally stab an egg (or whatever other food it is...) and let him grab the fork and feed it to himself. Starting January, Josh and I decided to read through the Bible together this year. Last year, we tried to do this separately, and I failed miserably. As we are eating, we just listen to the Bible app and sometimes show Shep pictures of the same stories in his Jesus Story Book Bible. I pray these stories are embedded in his heart and don't become cliché as he will hear them over and over. 

After breakfast, we immediately head upstairs, and Shep sits on his potty, because he seems to go #2 every morning around this time. He has peed several times on the potty and pooped 3 out of 4 mornings! We are not really trying to potty train. Rather, we are trying to avoid poopy diapers as it is almost impossible to keep his doo doo on just his diaper and wipes as we are changing him. I like to say this is all happening organically as neither Josh or I have read a single book, article, or blog post on how to potty train. 

Right after potty time, Shep goes in to the bath - not that necessarily needs to be clean, but it gives him a routine and something to do for a half hour where Josh is not chasing him around the house. We brush his teeth normally in the tub, and I get finish getting ready and leave before he gets finished with bath time. Shep always gives me a kiss and waves "bye bye." 

Not too much happens in that hour, but I savor these little moments every morning with Shepherd and Josh. I only get 3 - 3.5 hours of play time with Shep after I get home from work and before he goes to bed. I am excited to get to stay home once this little one makes his or her appearance. I don't want to miss as much as I've missed with Shep. 

How far along? 21 weeks
Baby is the length of a: Carrot
Total weight gain: 14 lbs still
Waist Measurement: 36 1/4 inches
Maternity clothes? Absolutely.
Stretch marks? None.
Sleep: Pretty good. I have been beyond my normal exhaustion lately on a day to day basis. Last night, I actually went to bed 15 minutes BEFORE Shepherd at 7:10pm. I think the impressive part is that I slept until 6:30am this morning. 
Best moment this week: Probably praising Shep every time he uses the potty. He feels so accomplished, and he doesn't mind the "clean up" of his bum at all. This is totally the opposite of what we normally experience. 
Movement: Yes, pretty regularly. I was about to type that Josh hadn't felt the baby move much, but he just said, "oh yea..I've definitely felt movement this week." 
Food cravings: Grilled peanut butter and jelly sandwiches still, and basically anything hearty, like a spicy chicken sandwich from either Wendy's or Chik-fil-a. 
Miss Anything? I miss laying on my back. I constantly find myself in the middle of the night laying on my back and having to roll over to my side. I don't remember fighting the urge to sleep on my back this far in to my pregnancy with Shepherd. 
Gender: We are going to keep it a surprise, but we haven't even had the chance the find out yet. 
Symptoms: NAUSEA! No vomiting...what a relief!
Belly Button in or out? I am still in that awkward stage of it not really being in or out. 
Wedding rings on or off? On
Mood?: More moody than normal, but I have also been more tired and hungry than normal, which could explain it. 

Sunday, January 18, 2015

2nd Pregnancy: Week 20

We are halfway through this pregnancy!!! This week I really started getting excited as we have come up with a baby girl's name that we're 90% positive we will use as her first name! Sorry - no clues as to what it is since we are such big fans of surprises. Ya know, not finding out the gender and not disclosing the names until the baby is born. It is just too good. My mom would call it torture. I digress. With all this excitement, I came home from work this past Wednesday and went nuts on Shepherd nursery. I decided we needed to switch Shep from his crib to a.... well, not a crib. I completely rearranged his bedroom and deep cleaned every crevice. Then I decided to take his mattress and make a floor bed, which coincides with Montessori to make everything accessible to a child. Now, as soon as he gets in his room, he grabs a book off the shelf and runs to his bed!

I will admit that the first night Shep ended up sleeping in the middle of room on the ground on top of his pillow and two favorite blankets balled up underneath him. Since then he has, for the most part, landed on his bed for bedtimes and nap times. We moved a different chair in to his room as well to still have a place for us to snuggle up and read. We will move our glider to our bedroom with our co-sleeper basinet. Josh pointed out that this is my first reaction to the nesting bug. The need to nest is real, people! I still haven't decided how we are going to cope with a new child in our small two bedroom, so any tips would help. We have considered combining the babes in the same room as soon as baby Hurst 2.0 is able to sleep through the night. Then we have gotten creative with the thought of putting up a partition in our bedroom for he or she to have their own little sleeping space. We just don't even know.. We will move in almost exactly one year from when he or she is born, so moving just doesn't seem feasible. Anyone ever live in tight quarters with little ones and have some wise words?

There are next to no updated news about this past week's pregnancy. I still yak almost every morning, and grilled pb&j's are my before-bed-snack almost every night. The bump is getting bigger as well as the number on the scale! We should be getting a call soon with our appointment time for our next ultra sound. ((((: I can't wait to see this little peanut again. He or she has been moving around like crazy since this past Thursday. I felt another quick jab when I was at dinner with a friend, and several times on Saturday and today, there have been different feelings of movement! So glad he or she decided to come out of hibernation!

How far along? 20 weeks
Baby is the length of a: Banana
Total weight gain: 14 lbs
Waist Measurement: 36 inches - given this is after dinner and my before-bed-snack
Maternity clothes? YAAAAAASSSSSS. All the time. Showin' the leggings and baggy shirts some love too. 
Stretch marks? None.
Sleep: Good when I go to bed early! That hasn't happened the past couple of nights.
Best moment this week: Just watching Shepherd grow up and organically transition in to his "new" bed. He is so adaptable. I know he will be great with his sister or brother. Although, we are still working on teaching the concept of being "gentle" to him. 
Movement: Yes, FINALLY, since Thursday!
Food cravings: Grilled peanut butter and jelly sandwiches still. I gotta have one before bed!!!! So I wouldn't necessarily say this is a craving or just plain gross, but Josh and I went to get ice cream at Sonic to wrap up our date night. When we went to order I just blurted out, "I'd like a chili cheese coney with mustard and onions!" I looked at Josh after I gobbled down my 11pm snack and told him, "that was the best ice cream I ever had."
Miss Anything? No.... Just loving everything going on inside of me. 
Gender: We still don't know!
Symptoms: Morning sickness almost every morning, but especially at work. 
Belly Button in or out? It is at an in between stage. 
Wedding rings on or off? On
Mood?: So good! My marriage has been so amazing. I definitely don't stress enough on here (or to him) how incredible my husband is to me and Shepherd. I absolutely could not do this journey on my own, and I love parenting with him along with just being his wife. God definitely blessed me with him!

Sunday, January 11, 2015

2nd Pregnancy: Week 19

Last week's post was a bit dramatic having the scary experience staring up at the ceiling tiles when the nurse couldn't find the heart beat, coming back from an exhaustive day(s) of travel and working my heart out at 2 different jobs, and painfully waiting the entire week before my hubby and son got back from Colorado and Texas. I am happy to preface this post that this week has been so uplifting and, for the most part, back to normal.

Shep came back with a few tricks up his sleeve. He is fully walking now, no more crawling. He added about 4 more signs to his sign language repertoire. He eats solid foods and drinks milk and water out of various cups that are NOT bottles. But mainly he is back to sticking disgusting used q-tips in his mouth he finds on the ground from me missing the trash can as it is about 4 feet away from the sink, acting like a change of diaper is the worst thing I could possibly do to him by thrashing about and crying hysterically, throwing anything he can possibly find in the toilet, and seeing how many signs, pointing, and whimpering it will take for me to figure out, "oh, he really just wants to watch "ball" or football on TV, and how dare I take him away from watching the playoff game with his dada."

My morning sickness has come back a bit about every other day, but I actually haven't felt this little bean move once this week. I have definitely grown around the midsection though. I've decided he or she decided to take this week to do a little hibernation as it has been the coldest it has been yet this winter. I decided this week to make a plunge and get 14 newborn cloth diapers. I have a few we trialled with Shepherd, but never had enough guts to follow through whole heartedly. We have now figured out all the ins and outs to cloth diapering, so the transition with a new baby wearing cloth won't be quite a shock as it would have been with our first born. The diapers are so teeny tiny, they almost fit in the palm of my hand. I cannot handle it!! This bean is going to be stylin' in the hospital!

19 weeks and 3 days
How far along? 19 weeks
Baby is the size of a: Mango
Total weight gain: 12 lbs
Waist Measurement: 35 inches
Maternity clothes? Yes - I am still able to pull off the regular pants by slipping the pony tail holder through the button hole and attaching it to the button to give my belly a little extra wiggle room. 
Stretch marks? Not yetttt!
Sleep: Normal when I am not tossing and turning from the tiny bit of pain I've been feeling from getting my wisdom tooth pulled a couple days ago. 
Best moment this week: Having my husband and son return home!!! Oh and watching Shep on our new video monitor. I was pretty against having one......until we got one. He is HILARIOUS to watch as he basically wrestles himself to sleep.
Movement: Not at all, crazy bean.
Food cravings: Grilled peanut butter and jelly sandwiches. Dont judge me. I've had one almost every single night........after dinner. 
Miss Anything? I miss being able to drink coffee in the morning and possibly a cup of sweet tea for dinner or hot tea at night. I have vowed to keep this caffeine thing to one a day, and I honestly need that extra bit of kick in the morning to make it through, so waiting until night isn't an option. 
Gender: Nobody knows, but we do have an ultrasound coming up where we could find out the gender, but we aren't going to. 
Symptoms: Morning sickness is back about every other day. 
Belly Button in or out? I still consider it "in" knowing how "out" it gets.
Wedding rings on or off? On
Mood?: Pretty great. I am glad to be back to my normal schedule. 

Sunday, January 4, 2015

2nd Pregnancy: Week 18

This past week, I can easily describe my emotions as extreme. I have felt incredulous at the mishaps in travel plans - mainly with airlines (American Airlines) canceling, delaying, rescheduling, and so on of every single flight I attempted to get on to get home from Texas. I felt inexplicable exhaustion as I immediately entered back in to my full time job, then adding an additional 3-4 hours of work each day at another facility, and coming home to either attempt to clean my house left in disarray when we abruptly left for Texas or sloop (slip and droop - I made up my own word, because I do what I want!) in to a deep coma for the next 8 hours until I did it all over again at work. I should elaborate on the state of the house in which we left it in. We packed and left within two hours of finding out of my Grandpa passing. This gave us enough time to essentially undress our live Christmas tree and strand it's naked self on the porch, throw clothes unfolded in to a suitcase, and strategically stuff our gazillion must-haves in to our Honda Civic. This left one million tiny fur needles ALL OVER MY HOUSE. To be honest, a million is probably understating it. Okay, back to my emotions...

After my flight landed and I walked in to my home, all I could think of was the quote by my brother-in-law when he too was in utter disbelief, "everything is everywhere!!!" I ended up just going to my friend's house to eat dinner to ignore the future mess I was to clean up and to allow my house to warm up a bit. The following day, my prenatal appointment didn't go exactly as I had imagined it. I imagined an immediate heart beat just thumping away, but that didn't happen.

Matter of fact, the nurse searched all over, even pushing my uterus to reposition the baby for the longest 5 minutes of my life. It felt like an eternity. As I was laying there, looking up at the ceiling tiles with tears streaming down the sides of my face, I finally said, "Is Kendra [my midwife] here? I would like her to be in here now." The nurse noticed that I was crying and apologized for how long it was taking and tried to comfort her. She was as sweet as could be, but at that point, I wanted someone I trusted and knew me. I was mad at myself for not waiting to have this appointment when Josh could be back in town. After a few minutes of waiting in the room alone, Kendra came in and just embraced me. Then she went to work with the doppler to find the heart beat. She, too, had a little bit of trouble finding the heart beat, but after a minute or so of pushing my uterus down and finding the right angle, I finally heard it. The RPM raised from 38 all the way to 71. We heard several times when he or she was either kicking or flipping around in there.

For some reason this pregnancy has had one thing or another go abnormally the entire 18 weeks. I love you little bean, but you have got to help a mama out and keep things chill for a while. When we couldn't find the heart beat, the most random things ran through my head thinking it was a miscarriage. I thought about how I was going to wait to tell Josh since he had just arrived at Breckinridge with his family, and I wanted him to enjoy his vacation. I thought how sad I was that Shep wouldn't have a sibling 19 months younger than him. I thought about how maybe I shouldn't have started drinking a cup of coffee a day starting the 2nd trimester, and how I could have been more diligent about taking my prenatal vitamins than I was. Then I was just mad that I would never get to meet him or her, and how not only was their life robbed, but so was my whole family's from meeting them. Thankfully, those thoughts dissipated as I listened to that heart beat get faster and faster. Tears still fell, but the thoughts turned in to imagery of this little one and Shepherd playing with each other as toddlers and lessons of how we are possibly going to teach a 19 month old to be gentle with a newborn.

So, yes, this week I have been irate, exhausted, heartbroken, and overjoyed all by myself with no one to fully share all these emotions with. I am beyond ready for my boys to get back home on Wednesday. Their arrival won't come fast enough!

18 weeks and 3 days

How far along? 18 weeks
Baby is the size of a: green bell pepper
Total weight gain: 10 pounds. I am actually pretty surprised. I thought it'd be more!
Waist Measurement: 34 inches
Maternity clothes? Yes or loose fitting clothes. Really I just wear scrubs every day to work so the occasions I do wear normal clothes, I am okay with squeezing in to my regular jeans or pants for a few hours. The metal button in my girth only screams at me after a few hours. 
Stretch marks? Not as of yet. They are going to come to the inner thighs though, I swear. That's where all of my weight is going, people. 
Sleep: Sleep has been great, especially since I got my Snoogle pillow 
Best moment this week: Definitely hearing baby 2.0's heart beat, but also the best moments have been when my head has hit the pillow each night. 
Movement: Absolutely. I am pretty sure I felt the baby move on the outside too, just once. 
Food cravings: I didn't think I was craving anything, but, man, fries sound good every. single. day.
Miss Anything? MY BABE AND MY BABY! I am ready for them to get back.
Gender: Josh and I decided to wait to find out the gender. We never get to surprise ourselves anymore.
Symptoms: I have had morning sickness more this week than last week. Matter of fact, this morning I drove to Cincinnati at 6 o'clock in the morning to hit up an REI garage sale at 8am for my husband. The insane woman that I was this morning decided not to get coffee or breakfast in order to make it there on time. I ended up throwing up in a Gap shopping back half way from Lexington, but I never stopped. I ended up getting Josh leather hiking boots, a sleeping bag, 2 sleeping mats, and Shep a swimming shirt for $150. I know I saved around $300 at LEAST! BOOM! Throw up in a bag was totally worth it. 
Belly Button in or out? Errrr out? in? I am not even sure. It depends on how big my meal was before I looked at it, or if I had digested food or not. 
Wedding rings on or off? On
Mood?: Feeling accomplished right now, since I am such a garage sale shopper! (;